my current posting is orthopaedics , and i am in hospital pakar sultanah fatimah,muar still. still struggling to grab the basic concept, and i am brushing up my anatomy knowledge feverishly. it's a fascinating field really, and kind of straight forward if ur basics are right. we are dealing mainly with fractures and cold cases. today, we saw one old man with colles' fracture of left wrist. well, basically its a fracture of lower part of a bone of forearm (distal part of radius). he met with an accident and fall  with outstreched hand from his bike on the left side and following the fall he experienced pain, swelling, deformity and restricted movement of that particular hand. But, no associated injury present. talking about colles' fracture, i once had the same thing. And i can remember the incident very vividly in my mind. i was 10 years old that time. Rode a bicycle,  and fall on my ritght side  with my palm outstrecthed. it was soo painful ok. i can never describe the instant pain that rushing through my body correctly. it was so painful that i felt like i'm going to pass out. i remembered that my vision blurred and and i was actually rushing into the house like org mabuk todi unsteadily. hehe..then, my whole body sweats, it was a cold sweat. i can't mobilise my limb. i can't hold anything in my hand. and it swelled up immediately. but, cant remember if there's any deformity or not. But, i didn't tell my mum or my grandma. I was too scared that they might nag or punish me coz i wasn't allowed to go out playing that day. But, somehow my mum noticed at dinnertime coz i wasn't my usual self, happily eating away. My hand hurts so much that i cant even suap nasi into my mouth. Then, apa lagi, diorang send me straight away to hospital. Tu pun, i think it was nearly 10 something at nite. Lucky, i wasn't admitted. U see, when i was a kid, i really did'nt smile with the idea of being admitted or makan ubat. Tak suka, maa! well, but now i am actually the one going to admit ppl and make them take medicine. How ironic is that. But  then, again  i've known a few drs that actually never take medicine if they are down with flu or fever. So, i guess, being drs doesn't mean u are actually health conscious or medicine frenly( Yeah, that also include me ). And as for example : smoking.  How many drs do smoke even though they know the hazards of smoking? And i bet many more were actually drinking heavily when they perfectly knew the consequences as well. So, as conclusion drs are perfectly human. and being human, they can't, but help sometimes , to do things that they are not supposed to do, to be tempted with things which is forbidden to population in general...hehe( and that includes smoking, drinking, eating fatty diet, not exercising, and bla bla bla). SO, PLZ DO STOP REGARDING  US AS SAINTED HUMAN K! coz i am ain't one. And, never wanna be one either....

i am back in hostel room. the family left to kl after dropping me down here. i'm feeling lost in a sudden. i just feel that the three days holiday( including one day class bunking) is just not enuf. i feel so drained lately, maybe becoz of the workload.  how i wish i can just break free once, fly back to kt,   breathe with ease, find myself drowned in the tranquility of its nature , and emerged rejuvenated and renewed. But, alas.... no more holidays until next two weeks. hopefully, they are giving off for graduation day. i cant wait....huh~ both my parents and sisters are down in kl..ups, i did mention up there izzit? nvm. they are heading straight to Ampang Puteri, i think. well, just hope my sis turns out -ve. she will definitely be thrilled if it's so, coz well, she is supposed to go school camping.  (And because of this thing, her whole plan rosak already). Other than that, the whole family will be relieved too. But, its too early to say anything right? My other sister, she hasn't stop burping since last week according to my mum. It's terrible. She goes on and on burping. Kesian dia, asik sendawa cam nenek tua. I did laugh initially, teasing her that she's acting superbly to gain mum's attention( nowadays, my mum lavished the utmost attention to my baby sis). But then, dia tak acting. Betul punyer sendawa. Coz when we try to make her suprised or scared, she never stopped burping. She only stop when she fall asleep. Then, my baby sis lak suh dia jgn makan durian, nanti sendawa bau durian.( when i went back,my mum bought lots of durian)..Hehe, sorry, i know that this bit might be distressing or even disgusting to some ppl. But, i just cant suppress my 'kepelikan' over this condition. Maybe i should start opening my handbook of differential diagnosis to look over this bizarre condition. Huhu, finally, its medicine time!!!

i haven't update for quite a long time. its not that i give up trying to write. but somehow, i dont find anything exciting or significant enuf to be jotted down. somehow, i am going back home tomorrow.the sole reason is becoz The whole family is currently not in the pink of health. mum is weak and lethargic due to her back problem(well she's been having this for years already), and my youngest baby sister is down with some rashes around the cheek. and she's seen by the specialist and they are querying SLE.well, things looks quite gloomy rite now. (she's been having oral ulcers constantly for few months, and also joint pain.)and they say she has 5 symptoms in favour of lupus out of 11.somehow, HKT cant conduct any definite investigations as to scarce resources(what!dont tell me govt dont have money, they are taxing us for what then??),and they are about to start off steroid on my poor baby sis based on clinical diagnosis alone ( hello, the symptoms are very non specific, doc!). it's a good thing mum actually hushed the idea off. well, they say it wont do much harm on my sis to start off the steroids, even if she turns out of not having lupus. huh, never ever in my 4 yrs of being a medical student, my lecturers says anything of that nature. they has been highlighting here and there, again and again repeatedly that we are to be CAUTIOUS to start off steroids, and the drugs are not to be given unnecessarily. well,and this are all not for nothing, obviously, it's because of the side effects dreaded.so, my mum finally decided to get her referred to ampang puteri. i guess, that's the best opted for her now. well, i guess i just have to see her condition myself.i cant wait to see her . i am worried, and i dont want anything bad to happen to any of my family. but then, i guess that's all life is all about. trials,woes,worries woven together with happiness,contentment and hopes. well, i still have hopes.lots of them. hopefully, it will turn out something else less morbid. i pray god,let it be something else less terrifying. plz,plz,plz...

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You are an angel of the forest. You love to have a
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preferably not human, and can converse with all
animals. You love to party, and like to be
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You have a naturally beatiful singing voice,
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yippeee....i am back in my hostel room.blissfully full,sinfully happy,and freaking out tired.but i never feel this happy within 3 years.so so happy.just back from terengganu. a real beautiful experience. mommy made yummy so called "melt in the mouth,not in the hand" choc chip cookies.and the choclatey taste still lingers in my mouth.ah...heaven.but dont worry,i have handful of them here,securedly locked in my closet,hehe...sounds stingy is it?but cant lose this beautifully crafted cookies comes from my mummy's artful hands when comes to cooking, too soon.if they can lasts for at least one week,then i'm blessed.actually am not worried about any creatures ,be it a mouse for real(my room is mouse proof,mind u!)or a human in the form of mouse(well,my frenz of course,but very unlikely they are going to do so)sneaking my precious cookies.somemore,has to watch out for my calorie intake these days.had too much of gulai daging,daging goreng,rendang daging and everythings cooked with daging these days. i am putting on few pounds already.mummy has been tiredlessly nagging all the time about my so called diet programme.but me being myself,i just go on eating whateve i feel like eating without any regrets.btw,whats the use of a beautifully cooked delicacies,if not to be savoured the details?hehe....thats my philosophy..... anybody objects?i rest my case.thank u.

after quite a long time,finally i am updating the blog.nothing much to say,since my routine is extremely monotonous these days.the same thing again and again.classes,clinics and cases,books,books and more books.i am keeping my nose on the grindstone,has to panaskan enjin for sessional exam which is coming up within 3 weeks.well,thats the core of life for each and every medical students i guess,anticipating exams each after another,a never ending business.sometimes i feel tired of studying,sick of exams and nauseated with every attempt of reading stacks of papers and heaps and piles of thick,3-4 inches thick book.i need to breathe,need to leisurely spending time,need to stretch my limbs and spare my brain a few holidays.but then,as medicine is a zero defect business,and as it's also my own choice of doing it,i am left with no better choice rather than lavishing my utmost attention to my studies.i have to.and trying too, frantically to make most of my time now reading the subjects.enough rant. on a lighter note,am going back to terengganu again tonight.am getting myself 3 days holiday full with enjoyment,family gatherings,good foods,sound sleep and endless babeque.cant wait for mummy well known secret recipe rempah daging bakar. am going to enjou myself tremendously with family company.my family is going to berkorban this time.am looking fwd for it. happy hari raya haji.