i consoled myself yesterday with another pair of shoes. the reason: frustration. the subreason : i cant go back for my cousin's wedding...wa wa wa..another wedding missed. and yet, she's a closely related cousin. nvm, at least i have a new pair of shoes..yay!

uh, oh..its nearly raya time and deepavali already. been quite sometimes last i updated. i am witheld by endless workloads and datelines to meet. but then, now here i am. i am in a real festive mood- been shopping quite alot these few days...mostly for my sisters. yelah, kat ganu mana ada shopping mall.so borong ler sini bebanyak ..huhu...so sad,eh? in terengganu, the best hypermarket that we have is -SABASUN which is known as supermarket tangga kayu by my kelantanese colleagues. but then, better than takda langsung kan? so, shopping in melaka is already a real experience for me... did i ever mention i am a shopaholic? yeah, i am. just cant set my eyes on one nice pair of shoes or sandals,lo and behold, gone will be the money in my purse. i have a lot of shoes and sandals. well, sometimes sampai tak terpakai. membazir gak rasa kekadang. think have to start exercising some amount of self control. :) :P well, well....but that is a typical gal isn't it? and then, i am a real fan of tudungs as well... currently, collecting the italy collection. haha, endlessly collecting tudung. memang napak cam kene kawin ngan tokey balak aku nih....then leh le shopping puas2...but u just tell me...is there any gal outthere who can afford yang takde colourful pieces of tudung. each to be matched with certain outfit and colour baju.. tu ler sampai tak muat almari....and i think its a lumrah here... anyway, guess its enuff rambling. well fAriz, hope i satisfy u that i finally update my blog. well..my last note for today, wishing u all a very happy and pleasant hari raya aidilfitri and maaf zahir batin to all my muslim frens. and happy deepavali to all my indian frenz. those yang drive balik kg, drive carefully,make sure u all come back in one piece and sound. okeh.....happy holiday!

I Love You I have a smile stretched from ear to ear to see you walking down the road we meet at the lights I stare for a while the world around disappears just you and me on this island of hope a breath between us could be miles let me surround you my sea to your shore let me be the calm you seek oh and every time I'm close to you there's too much I can't say and you just walk away and I forgot to tell you I love you and the night's too long and cold here without you I grieve in my condition for I cannot find the strength to say I need you so oh and every time I'm close to you there's too much I can't say and you just walk away and I forgot to tell you I love you and the night's too long and cold here without you need more to describe my emotion?:P

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feeling lucky. i consider myself as very lucky in many ways.even though in status wise or financial matters, i am not even nearly as good as any of my colleagues,i still consider myself lucky .GOD has given me so much, has answered most of my prayers, has made most of my dreams and wishlists come true. at the very least, i still have enough money to spend to my heart content , still have a home that shelters me from windy/rainy days and unmerciful hot sunrays. i still have a family to whom i can turn to whenever i'm in need.and i dont have to beg in the streets just for a mouthful of rice. indeed, i am lucky. why am i bringing this matter up now? no,no,i am not consoling myself for any minor defects in this supposedly 'wonderful' life of mine. neither am i trying to convince myself that i am vastly superior compared to other beings in this world. i am just ranting about this cause of my encounter today. i saw one chinese guy sleeping on the floor in front of this old shop near SELVAM'S. he doesn't look that old, but he looks very frail, shabby and sad.he was wearing one faded shirt with a short. beside him, was one big bottle of water . my mind started to ponder,doesn't he has anyone that can take care of him, any kids/relatives/wife whatsoever that can REALLY look after him. was he ever married after all? how would he eats? how he gets money to buy food? does he has a house? all this question keeps on nagging me. i know that this is actually none of my business. not highly jobless to take care the hem of others gown when my one pun koyak, but it's only that i suddenly feel so sad for him. i suddenly sympathize with him and the emotion overwhelmed me. the only time i ever felt this way was when i was in manipal. this view that i just described, is not an unfamiliar one in manipal. trust me, it's even worst. ppl actually sleeping everywhere on the green green grass under the open sky with stars and moon.how they can stand the chilly nite with some papers and thin blankets is beyond me. and there are beggars EVERYWHERE.BUT THAT WAS INDIA. and THIS IS MALAYSIA.and back to this old man story, here, i can only look at him with sympathy and sadness. i cant make much difference in his life now with the emotions that i have. i have no money to offer yet.well, maybe one day, when i am rich enuf, i will do something to make a good difference in this less fortunate ppl life. and for now, maybe its enuf to have some sympathy, for a start...

WARNING:MUSHINESS AHEAD. NOT FOR THE FAINTEST OF HEART CAUSE STRABISMUS DO NOT ATTEMPT READING IF U'RE PRONE FOR ATTACK OF VOMITING OR BOUTS OF COUGHING OR U ARE IN THE ASSOCIATION AGAINST PDA(PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION, NOT PATENT DUCTUS ARTERIOSUS) .THANK YOU. TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN. i am not not angry anymore with u. I am so sorry that I ever mad with u. I just can't figure why was i mad with u in the first place. Maybe, it was my hormones. Maybe it's the work. Maybe it's my patience that starting to thin out these days, maybe i am undergoing early aging process aka dementia. Maybe i am frustrated with every single thing in my life nowadays that i took it out at u. Maybe i am just being myself. But whatever the reason was, i would like u to know, that deep down i do care for u, and my feeling for u never change. Like it or not, i'm stuck with u, cause i choose to (actually, i like to be stucked with u). And coz of ur soft nature and patience, i am feeling terribly bad for treating u with silence. Thank u for being so understanding and patient. Thank u for always being there for me. Thank you for always tak kisah with my tantrums and my antics. Thank u for everything u did for me in the past, present and in future. oh yeah, did i ever mention that i think u are cute too? yours sincerely, UR little lioness( when i'm fuming mad).

tomorrow can be too late...The Messege is really nice!!! I

• f you're mad with someone , and nobody's there to fix the situation... You fix it . Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend . And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late .
• If you're in love with somebody , but that person doesn't know... tell her/him. Maybe today, that person is also in love with you .And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late .
• If you really want to kiss somebody... kiss her/him. Maybe that person wants a kiss from you, too . And if you don't kiss her/him today, tomorrow can be too late .
• If you still love a person that you think has forgetten you... tell her/him. Maybe that person have always loved you. And if you don't tell her/him today , tomorrow can be too late.
• If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it. Maybe they need it more than you do. And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.
• If you really have friends who you appreciate... tell them. Maybe they appreciate you as well. That if you don't and they leave or go far away today , tomorrow can be too late.
• If you love your parents, and never had the chance to show them... do it . Maybe you have them there to show them how you feel. That if you don't and they leave today , then tomorrow can be too late.