rently, i am in kl. writing from a remote cyber cafe in uptown. well, lets see. what had i done for past few days. ummm...fled from melaka on thursday. i bunked my clinics for 2 days...shame on me...but i have to guys, really need extras 2 days for my sessional, or more for basking around in heavily airconditioned room, sleeping like a log. another shame on me....

parents and bad bad sisters came down on friday. mum spoilt me rotten with her super delicious kampung style cooking. so i bet by the end of the week, i will be a few pounds more fatter. though i cant afford to be any fatter. well. and today the hse is fuller than the usual. school holidays starting, so my aunts and cousins also are down.and i am expecting another family by evening. well, the more the merrier, but i am abit worried with my studying arrangement as the house is abit too noisy nowadays. have to start finding a secluded spot for my reading.i am going bonkers!!!hehe

i am missing fazli. though he's still in kl. its impossible for me to go out wif him coz he's also having papers. do well, honey. i am going to make this up for us later.

my family is going back tom, they're insisting of me going wif 'em. wat do u think? shud i go? i dont think so as i might not be coming back at all for my exam then. hehe evilgrin^

k ppl, i might not be able to update for awhile. so u all be good while i'm gone..oh yeah, and kakwan, dont be worried. u will do fine..anyway, what can turn more worse, when u actually have undergone all the worst things in med school? chin up, head up young dr!!!and good luck

i finished my medicine end of posting exam today. alhamdulillah. soo relieved. rasa macam terlepas sumer beban. yet, cant relax kaw2, coz my sessional will be coming in 2 weeks time. i am contented though, for a day of laziness. ok ppl, need a nap. my eyelid is getting heavier...c ya later.

READ THIS: IT'S COOL...SO TAKE 5 EVERY 5 MINS EVERYONE...HOW I WISH MY LECTURERS CAN SEE THIS..HAHA...THE RATE I AM GOING NOW, I SHOULD AGE BY 60 0R ABOVE...:p

Laziness cures brain cells and extends life span

03/04/2005 18:14

Human beings need to relax when they feel like it - it is a very good remedy for the body and especially for the brain

Better doing it tomorrow than doing it today. The people, who prefer to follow this philosophy, can now boast of having a scientifically grounded excuse for their laziness. It goes about the book titled "The Joy of Laziness," written by a former professor of medicine, Peter Axt, and his daughter, Michaela Axt-Gadermann, a doctor and a scientific journalist (Germany).

The two authors wrote the book to stand up against the domination of the beauty and efficiency model, which can be supposedly achieved with the only one way - hard work. The two German specialists believe that excessive sports exercises can be as destructive as stress and cut people's life span. Physical exercises, the scientists believe, intensify the production of so-called "free radicals," unstable molecules, which possess only one electron instead of two. Such a peculiarity makes molecules becomes balance-oriented, as they attach an electron of another molecule nearby and create new instability. Metabolism turns free radicals to hydrogen peroxide, which deteriorates cells and accelerates the ageing process.

Excessive physical exercises exert a negative influence on the human body on the whole. They boost the activity of mitochondria in muscle cells. Mitochondria function as the main center for the production of free radicals. They also act as the center of cell energy, where reactions of the breathing chain take place. Hydrogen peroxide appears as a result of these processes again: the substance can be neutralized with antioxidants that can be found in fruit and vegetables. Peter and Michaela Axt, however, say that laziness can become a very good substitution for fruit and vegetables.

A healthy walk and moderate nutrition can bring a lot more good to a long and active life. The German scientists say that one should not be shy about taking breaks at work, especially if there is no boss around. Peter and Michaela Axt say that human beings need to relax when they feel like it - it is a very good remedy for the body and especially for the brain. A moment of relaxation helps the brain neutralize cortisol - the hormone that the human body produces in stress situations. The stress hormone is capable of damaging brain cells and leading to memory loss and premature senescence.

Peter Axt and his daughter are perfectly aware of what they wrote in their book. Peter, 65, was a member of the German national track and field team. He took part in international competitions, which were definitely preceded with many days and hours of exhausting physical exercises. Peter's daughter followed her father's example and clinched a silver medal in a 10,000-meter racing competition in Germany, Newsru reports.

pardon me if this entry doesn't make much sense. its 10 mins to 4 in morning and i am still up and about,though mind not so alert anymore.still half conscious,moderately cooperative and half stable. mind is still sound though. so no worries here. sitting uncomfortably with neck and backache due to excessive bending. finishing my medicine write ups cases in between dozzing off to sleep. haiaya...my alarm clock rings already. wat a nuisance...i wanna sleep...i wanna sleep...i think gonna pop down some pcm now. head starts to rage. maybe it shud go wif a nice cup of coffee..yeah, it shud. .need to be insomnic today. so till then, bear wif the insomnic queen. be good peeps!

I am currently hooked to this series - DESPERATE HOUSEWIFE. its darkly comedic, wild and amusing .since my room has no tv,thus no ASTRO watsoever, i am contented to watch 'em through the network. and i am currently very2 backward. but really this series really berhantu, that i actually glued to my com screen for hours. for those that is not aware of the series, click here. i like all the characters, bree is too purrfect, but nevertheless stylish(i love her hair, and her outfits). gabrielle is hot, man. but doesnt like her romantic affairs though. i pity lynette so much, maybe if i were her, i'll just spank the kids hard...well, they deserves it u know,notty notty boys.. and susan, she's too clumsy, and always fell into embarrassing situations. maybe she's my least fav. hehe...

and look, i try my hands on this quiz thingy.see my result?

Congratulations! You are Bree Van De Kamp, the
Martha Stewart on steroids, whose family is
about to mutiny.

Which Desperate Housewife are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

:P haha, do u think i have some resemblance to this mrs purrfect wife, mother and housekeeper? dont think so, i dont cook cuisines for dinner (maybe not yet), and i dont scrub my kitchen clean or arrange flowers everyday. but wait, maybe i have some traits as her, like high regards of wat is correct, and respect for god, huhu.....I am the next Mrs purfect in making, but FAZLI u wont go and find another woman to appease ur 'other' interest, will u? huhu, now i am more like GABRIELLE SOLIS...;) and this goes out to someone i really miss at the moment..u know who u are! and ladies and gentleman, pardon me for my jiwangness..

Makin Aku Cinta

Caramu Mencintaiku Menjauhkan kecurangan Seperti bintang Yang setia pada bulan

Memegang kukuh janji Menemani aku sampai mati Terpasung hati Tulusmu mendampingi diriku

Makin aku cinta Cermin sikapmu yang mampu Merendam rasa keakuanku (Mengerti, memahami cinta)

Caramu memanjakan ku Kau rujuki kesejukan pagi Memasang hati Tulus aku, memasrahkan diri

Jangan pernah terbesit hati Meragukan kesetiaan yang tercurah Aku dan dirimu ditakdirkan satu Langit jadi saksi

i have no idea to update. coz my life is slightly static these few days. oh, yeah, been suffering from headache since sunday. tatau la pasal pe, maybe coz of the heat. amik panadol tak jalan. so, i resort to alternative medicine. i used the aloe vera gel on my scalp, alhamdullilah. relieve sket the pain and sejuk jer... and i used the super kino patch on my soles at night. bangun pagi2,buka the patch. terkejut...haiyark, manyak toxin wooo....the patch turned black... but dont ask me the physiology or mechanism of action of tht patch ok. coz i donno.somehow, i do have some amount of faith in certain types of alternative medicine. like acupuncture. my mom tried before and it works for her back pain relief. though more of temporary solution. and last time when i was 16, i had one full year of acne full attacks, and after some herbs preparation by my mom's fren ( he practise iridolog, i think), all the pimples dried off. donno coincident or what. but i still believe some branches of alt med works... ok2, my two cents :)

Understand death has no use for time.

No time is any better, any worse.

Cancel twenty years or eighty-nine,

Love's a loss one cannot reimburse.

Each of us lives for an eternity,

Dying only after our forever.

Early or late, we vanish equally,

All unconscious of the ties we severe,

No longer either separate or together

I saw a patient of Bronchogenic Ca(lung cancer) today. when i first entered the room to accompany my fren clerking the case, there was this chinese MO, standing with the family members. he is breaking the news. and he did it the way it should be, with empathy,and looking all professional about it. i was gawking at him,with awe. coz, i imagined myself in his shoes(though i must say his shoes must be wayyy to big for me as i wear a size 4 only) and i think i wont be able to do it half as good as he did. yeah, coz of my emotion. my emotions always fail me.i am an emotional gal, i feel strongly for most of things. though some of u strangers might feel i doesn't look like one. but i am, i am no heartless insensitive goat. i know we are taught this in med school - to show empathy,not sympathy, towards our patient. but, at times i do find it diffilcult not to differ, and to draw lines between those two. sometimes, i found tears welling behind my eyes when i look at my chronically ill patients. sometimes, i feel like weeping for them, for all the sufferings and hardship they are going through. they are the booster when my spirit dying off, when i feel like giving up. when i feel down when my lecturers scolded or chased me out into the corridor(well,not me alone..most of my groupmates do get chased out). yeah, they are the source of my strength. the simple thank yous and smile they gave always lighten up my day.

and this chinese patient, whom i was referring to, is having stage 3b of lung ca. which is the second last stage of the disease. they wont be treating him with surgery, as u see, almost the whole of left lung is involved. and u cant remove the whole lung. so, they are giving him what we call palliative treatment, just to improve his quality of life, for the remaining years or months or days that is left. but knowing the nature of disease, obviously he wont make it long. the truth is staring brazenly at him and the family members - he's gonna die. time is running short for him, and for the family. he is taking it all in a stride,very calmly and listening to the dr quietly.when i glanced up, on the dressing table,i saw a self-made white papercard with a picture of a org lidi lying on a bed,with a large bold letters saying -TO GRANDPA,GET WELL SOON. i instantly feel the emotion rushed and surfaced. i supressed it, but looking at him again, i feel sad. i was thinking of his grandchildren. it must be hard for his loved ones to accept the fact. but, it happens to everyone. each and every of us will suffer loss, and will be lost. however,by the end of the day. i learnt one lesson - to savour each heartbeats, to do good while i am able too, to appreciate the ones that loves me, to thank god for what i have everyday. i am no god, i can never cure, but at least, i can try to make a difference in my patients life, with the skills and knowledge that i am bound to have. before i take in the hippocratic oath(which i hope will be in feb next year), i swear in the names of god, that i will work hard, earn my degree ,but not forgetting my humanity. my patients are not objects,they are human.