i'm back from clinic. saw one Down syndrome child in the ward with asthma today. I just realized that these children are CUTE. the one that i clerked today is. he was so funny and smart, for his condition. he actually picked up my torch and ask me to open my mouth, imitating what the specialist has been doing to him. and all his antics, was entertaining. dont get me wrong,dear ppl, i am not eyeing him as a mere object of amusement. somehow, i just found him cute, and smart and cant help from liking this boy. maybe, its his condition that really catch my attention, and maybe to some extent, sympathy. but anyways, its not very like me to like sick children. well, u see, i am not much of a mother. so i never like paediatrics. gimme anytime sulking demented geriatrics, but i just cant stand a sick, wailing child. has too little patience for them. ok, ok, i know i call for some critism here. but thats what i am,ok. we'll see if time can change my preference later. but until today, i still firm of becoming a geriatrician. tonite, i'll be back in KT. just wanna see my granma. she's improving it seem. and i am happy for that matter. i just love her so much. she's my shoulder to cry on. and it just break my heart if anything bad to happen to her. i dont even wanna give it a thought. nauzubillah. she will live a long more peaceful life, many2 more years. until i and my siss get married, settled down and have kids, and live happily ever after. she will see all of these. its my prayer. insya allah. I LOVE U CIK.with all my heart. another thing, i think our MOTHER EARTH is not feeling well this few days. last weeks, we had FLOOD in the East coast, last weekend a TSUNAMI following earthquake, now it's here

hi, i'm back. well, i am done with the papers. YAY. and today mum dad and sis coming down to see me, double YAY. i have no idea whether they are gonna be only here in MELAKA or will be dragging me off to KL once they enter the driveway. but both ways also, i will be delighted. well, expecting good food ^wink^ , endless shopping ^wink^ and maybe one nice trip to the zoo. not kidding, i'm serious. for my sis's sake. she's a real animalist. her past ambitions revolved around becoming a vet, an architect or a doctor. but, i seriously suspecting she's becoming one empathic vet soon. that was her childhood dream, before dad actually hushed the idea off. apparently, dad wants another doctor daughter in the family. me? i would be glad if she stays away from the profession, though. only i know the hardship of med school. but then, it worth the efforts. and if she feels to follow my imprints, she;s free to do so, but obviously with stern guidelines from me. but i still see her as an enthusiastic vet with cuddly kittens and cows and horses and ecetra2. (maybe piglets and puppies too, hehe the drawbacks). she has to choose, when the time comes, as i have chosen. and chose well, i hope. i keep my fingers crossed.

my ex just IMed me..ok,ok i know it is of no big deal to most ppl. but, i just got infuriated whenever he tried to butt in or make his presence felt again. purlleeeze...i dont need to be serabut again after all this while being left alone (read: u jilted me remember!)and starting to savour the peacefullness that follow suit. hey,man, get a life! dont try to remind me of the days when i was foolish and naive enuf to allow myself to be degraded into such extent. u can't mess with me anymore, as i am a new woman altogether with more integrity than i ever had . just clear orff...i dont have anything to do with u. u are a history. and not something which is worth to be mentioned either. and dont try to act such goody2, asking me to send regards to dear ppl of my life. u can never be part of them again, so just back of! go back to where u belong - our life is at two different spectrum. u and i are different. and i am glad, for once that we are. i have always cast a curse on u. and u shall taste the fruits of whatever thingy u are working on. i wish u are well, and good day to u. ( yeah, i know i can become a b1T*h at times, yeah2 tq)

today's paper was horrendous. from quest no 2, i was practically fumbling with my tudung until it become so senget. and i look like one zombie terlepas from hospital bahagia with such appearance( i found it later after going to the hall bathroom)which rendered me horrified. but who to blame with such a quote unquote user frenly paper. enuf of my vanity. i was actually trying to collect the faintest memory of everything they taught us in class. whatthehell, man! u actually taught the whole bundle of neurosurgery, but just asked me one little question that carries 5 marks, and that only is about ventriculo-peritoneal shunt that has only pictures in my notes...wa wa wa....sob sob...thank god i didn't finish the neuro portion. this is what shoby said the other day, nota pun macam muka dia...hehe... abit mean, there gal, but i cant help from aggreeing with u more now....but alas, i am finished with my surgery, and i have to announce that it is very true now that my beloved professors in surgery really has butchered any love i had for that subject. on a lighter note, its my pleasure to announce that our MISS WANDA and MISS MAYA has legally graduated today, and henceforth will be prefixed as DR WANDA and DR MAYA. two thumbs up for u gals! congrats congrats!! more success in ur future undertakings. u really deserved this, rejoice! and for elle, be strong. its only fate doesn't aggree with u this time. but, somehow, i know u are good. just keep trying, ok? dont give up. and my prayers will always be with u. i believe, god has some grand plans for u. SMILE, HONEY, SMILE. keep ur chin up! i believe in u and me! I LOVE U SIS. OK, i better get going. start panaskan enjin for my ORTHOPAEDICS tomorrow. i just hope my tulangs wont disappoint me tonite. yesterday, they did, ok. just cant sit straight without a little backache. i'm wishing for some nice massages now. WINK WINK : 4LI, i think maybe i need ur remarkable service sometimes this near future :P (just joking ok, dont take this seriously to hear,ppl!) okeh for now. till then,peeps!

i am back. finally. i am exhausted, no doubt about that. my eyes has got this weird sensation, like its gonna popped out of the socket any secs. and my back is literally killing me. dull ache type of pain that made me feel old, again. thank god, my sanity level is still satisfactory,and you can safely be assured that i will still function as myself by the end of the week. on the other hand, i am a feeling abit feverish. its just the exam, maybe. still, its kind of alarming, since everyone around me is getting the fever with rash, or fever with cough, or cough alone. Elia just admitted today after days of coughing and fever, she got pneumonia. pity her, hope she will recover soon. shida never stops coughing since past 3 weeks(or is it more?), i think she should get a chest x-ray like ain did. well, at least if it turns out normal, she can breathes easily again knowing its due to some other causes- not the dreaded TB or pneumonia. shamimah also not in the pink of health today. she look tired and she do sound tired. i think, maybe its the exam again, or can it be a community acquired pneumonia plaguing the our basement? hopefully, not. ok, i am supposed to be studying now. tomorrow will be surgery. WAS my fav paper, until the YOUKNOWWHO prof. came this sem for my clinics, and barked everyday, ruining any love that i had left for the subject. still, old passion sometimes can never die. like the first love, the first kiss. and whatever first thing that u come across. at least, the memory didn't. well, looks like i am navigating away from the main topic. so i guess i better be off for now. daa...! p/s : pray for my answering the paper ok2...:)

i have found inspirations. THIS and THIS made me feel much better now. at least, i know, that i am merely begun. and this ppl, has actually experienced the real life of a medical officer. i shall keep my chin up, and strive for betterment. i will make a GOOD and SAFE doctor. insya allah. :)

the road to success is never ending. the road to success is going on and on and on. the road to success is more bumpy. the road to success is driving me mad. pardon me, ladies and gentleman. i just got a bump on my head...

i am on hiatus. will be sitting for another exam in 3 days time. wish me luck, everyone. i really need that, for once.

am just back from KL. went to PD for my cousin's reception. The journey was tiring, and i slept through most of it. The bride and groom, looking good, though. well, they always look good anyway. but, i wish my cousin has toned down makeup abit. It made her flawless complexion too doll like. I prefer the au naturel look. but, cant deny she still look princessly wif that pink dress of hers. and then, there are many relatives. some i've never met. some i've never even heard of. and also my immediate expanded family. love to be among them again. my nuclear cant turn up though. as my grandma is sick. but, my aunties and uncles and cousins still made me feel at home. on MONDAY nite, we had dinner together2 in Hyatt, well, the food was delectable. feels good on my tastebuds. and another happy nite surrounded by familiar faces. family ties will never die. met my hostess australian aunties with her three gorgeous daughter. omigod, how they have grown over the years. i can barely recognize them. they look like models. i am not exaggerating. with figure to die for and exotic face, they can easily get into any modelling agency. but, they are the ' brainy' ones, kak jasmin graduated as physiotherapist. the twin sisters doing science. i think, they will make good scientist.:) no doubt about that. i ended my weekend only yesterday, coz i am supposingly to be studying. but end up staying in kl for 4 consecutive days, with endless novels and gossiping. reluctantly, i am back here now. but, feeling replenished and energized again..

this goes out to someone that i really miss at this moment, may u have a good day ahead of u... dimana pun ku berdiri kau kan tetap kuingati kau selalu dekat dalam hati ini dan tak pernah sekali pun hari hari yang berlalu tanpa aku merindumu kekasihku saat kita berjauhan jangan ada rasa bimbang kerna cinta bukan meragukan perasaan tak mengira detik waktu ingin kulafaz selalu aku cinta padamu walau seribu liku didepanku akan tetap aku tempuh dalam hatiku kau tak pernah jauh walau pun terpaksa ku menunggu tanpa jemu dan selalu sentiasa dekat di hatiku kau membuat hidup ini semakin lebih bererti kau miliki kelebihan tersendiri tak mengira detik waktu ingin kulafaz selalu aku cinta kepadamu walau seribu liku didepanku akan tetap aku tempuh dalam hatiku kau tak pernah jauh walau pun terpaksa ku menunggu tanpa jemu dan selalu sentiasa dekat di hatiku....

You should be dating a Gemini 21 May - 20 June This mate is inquisitive, entertaining and
charming, liberal, broad-minded and youthful.
Though Gemini has a tendency to be impatient,
gossipy and sometimes irritable, this twin has
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A:

Your Beauty lies in Innocence. Pure, sweet and child-like. You most
likely look far younger than you are and your smile would brighten up anyone's
day. Seen as naive and sheltered, you can be ignorant at times, but for
the most part, it's simply your reputation preceding you. You are most likely
rather aware of the realities of life. You are extremely good natured and
trustworthy. By the same token, you are a bit too trusting. Be careful, few are as honest
and open as you. You might seem girlish still with a love of dresses, ponies,
and things most might deem you "too old for". But this doesn't
bother you. You enjoy your youth and are going to make it last. After all you are only as
old as you feel.

Some Things That Represent You:

Element: Light, Wind Animal: Kitten Color:
White, Pink, Pastels Song: Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney
Expression: Innocent Smile

Gemstone: Diamond Mythological Creature: Unicorn
Planet: Moon Hair Color: White Eye Color: Silver

Quote: "A stranger is just a friend you haven't met
yet."

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my ym status today is - dead by saturday. why? i am officially on a working marathon, starting : today. well, i have only two chores, but both are pretty exhausting. finishing endless sheets of tutorial topics in paediatrics, and another conference paper in O&G, both due on saturday. on top of that, my midsemester exam is coming within 2 weeks..well, looks like i am gonna be overworked this week. but,nevertheless, am going to give my best. just keep ur fingers crossed, and i will still be around by saturday 12pm,k! if not, please please someone, look for me in the library,or probably in my room, and fish me out under the piles of book and sheets of notes. and then,there's no question i will be addicted to coffee again...too much for my effort of ablution from this coffee addiction of mine.^sigh^ ....ok, ok...need my hourly shot of caffeine now...till then, tekke! oh yeah, anyone with hi5, feel free to add me here

i consoled myself yesterday with another pair of shoes. the reason: frustration. the subreason : i cant go back for my cousin's wedding...wa wa wa..another wedding missed. and yet, she's a closely related cousin. nvm, at least i have a new pair of shoes..yay!

uh, oh..its nearly raya time and deepavali already. been quite sometimes last i updated. i am witheld by endless workloads and datelines to meet. but then, now here i am. i am in a real festive mood- been shopping quite alot these few days...mostly for my sisters. yelah, kat ganu mana ada shopping mall.so borong ler sini bebanyak ..huhu...so sad,eh? in terengganu, the best hypermarket that we have is -SABASUN which is known as supermarket tangga kayu by my kelantanese colleagues. but then, better than takda langsung kan? so, shopping in melaka is already a real experience for me... did i ever mention i am a shopaholic? yeah, i am. just cant set my eyes on one nice pair of shoes or sandals,lo and behold, gone will be the money in my purse. i have a lot of shoes and sandals. well, sometimes sampai tak terpakai. membazir gak rasa kekadang. think have to start exercising some amount of self control. :) :P well, well....but that is a typical gal isn't it? and then, i am a real fan of tudungs as well... currently, collecting the italy collection. haha, endlessly collecting tudung. memang napak cam kene kawin ngan tokey balak aku nih....then leh le shopping puas2...but u just tell me...is there any gal outthere who can afford yang takde colourful pieces of tudung. each to be matched with certain outfit and colour baju.. tu ler sampai tak muat almari....and i think its a lumrah here... anyway, guess its enuff rambling. well fAriz, hope i satisfy u that i finally update my blog. well..my last note for today, wishing u all a very happy and pleasant hari raya aidilfitri and maaf zahir batin to all my muslim frens. and happy deepavali to all my indian frenz. those yang drive balik kg, drive carefully,make sure u all come back in one piece and sound. okeh.....happy holiday!

I Love You I have a smile stretched from ear to ear to see you walking down the road we meet at the lights I stare for a while the world around disappears just you and me on this island of hope a breath between us could be miles let me surround you my sea to your shore let me be the calm you seek oh and every time I'm close to you there's too much I can't say and you just walk away and I forgot to tell you I love you and the night's too long and cold here without you I grieve in my condition for I cannot find the strength to say I need you so oh and every time I'm close to you there's too much I can't say and you just walk away and I forgot to tell you I love you and the night's too long and cold here without you need more to describe my emotion?:P

May

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feeling lucky. i consider myself as very lucky in many ways.even though in status wise or financial matters, i am not even nearly as good as any of my colleagues,i still consider myself lucky .GOD has given me so much, has answered most of my prayers, has made most of my dreams and wishlists come true. at the very least, i still have enough money to spend to my heart content , still have a home that shelters me from windy/rainy days and unmerciful hot sunrays. i still have a family to whom i can turn to whenever i'm in need.and i dont have to beg in the streets just for a mouthful of rice. indeed, i am lucky. why am i bringing this matter up now? no,no,i am not consoling myself for any minor defects in this supposedly 'wonderful' life of mine. neither am i trying to convince myself that i am vastly superior compared to other beings in this world. i am just ranting about this cause of my encounter today. i saw one chinese guy sleeping on the floor in front of this old shop near SELVAM'S. he doesn't look that old, but he looks very frail, shabby and sad.he was wearing one faded shirt with a short. beside him, was one big bottle of water . my mind started to ponder,doesn't he has anyone that can take care of him, any kids/relatives/wife whatsoever that can REALLY look after him. was he ever married after all? how would he eats? how he gets money to buy food? does he has a house? all this question keeps on nagging me. i know that this is actually none of my business. not highly jobless to take care the hem of others gown when my one pun koyak, but it's only that i suddenly feel so sad for him. i suddenly sympathize with him and the emotion overwhelmed me. the only time i ever felt this way was when i was in manipal. this view that i just described, is not an unfamiliar one in manipal. trust me, it's even worst. ppl actually sleeping everywhere on the green green grass under the open sky with stars and moon.how they can stand the chilly nite with some papers and thin blankets is beyond me. and there are beggars EVERYWHERE.BUT THAT WAS INDIA. and THIS IS MALAYSIA.and back to this old man story, here, i can only look at him with sympathy and sadness. i cant make much difference in his life now with the emotions that i have. i have no money to offer yet.well, maybe one day, when i am rich enuf, i will do something to make a good difference in this less fortunate ppl life. and for now, maybe its enuf to have some sympathy, for a start...

WARNING:MUSHINESS AHEAD. NOT FOR THE FAINTEST OF HEART CAUSE STRABISMUS DO NOT ATTEMPT READING IF U'RE PRONE FOR ATTACK OF VOMITING OR BOUTS OF COUGHING OR U ARE IN THE ASSOCIATION AGAINST PDA(PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION, NOT PATENT DUCTUS ARTERIOSUS) .THANK YOU. TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN. i am not not angry anymore with u. I am so sorry that I ever mad with u. I just can't figure why was i mad with u in the first place. Maybe, it was my hormones. Maybe it's the work. Maybe it's my patience that starting to thin out these days, maybe i am undergoing early aging process aka dementia. Maybe i am frustrated with every single thing in my life nowadays that i took it out at u. Maybe i am just being myself. But whatever the reason was, i would like u to know, that deep down i do care for u, and my feeling for u never change. Like it or not, i'm stuck with u, cause i choose to (actually, i like to be stucked with u). And coz of ur soft nature and patience, i am feeling terribly bad for treating u with silence. Thank u for being so understanding and patient. Thank u for always being there for me. Thank you for always tak kisah with my tantrums and my antics. Thank u for everything u did for me in the past, present and in future. oh yeah, did i ever mention that i think u are cute too? yours sincerely, UR little lioness( when i'm fuming mad).

tomorrow can be too late...The Messege is really nice!!! I

• f you're mad with someone , and nobody's there to fix the situation... You fix it . Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend . And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late .
• If you're in love with somebody , but that person doesn't know... tell her/him. Maybe today, that person is also in love with you .And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late .
• If you really want to kiss somebody... kiss her/him. Maybe that person wants a kiss from you, too . And if you don't kiss her/him today, tomorrow can be too late .
• If you still love a person that you think has forgetten you... tell her/him. Maybe that person have always loved you. And if you don't tell her/him today , tomorrow can be too late.
• If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it. Maybe they need it more than you do. And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.
• If you really have friends who you appreciate... tell them. Maybe they appreciate you as well. That if you don't and they leave or go far away today , tomorrow can be too late.
• If you love your parents, and never had the chance to show them... do it . Maybe you have them there to show them how you feel. That if you don't and they leave today , then tomorrow can be too late.

boring giler hari nih....pagi2 bukak internet takleh...network down lagi...so i just continue sleeping until 9 something. wake up with a start coz fazli called. he went back to kl today morning. pehtu terus takleh tido. went jogging at 9.30. sound crazy, meh? hehe...takleh wat apa...den kene turun few kg before my cousin's wedding...haha, cam aku lak nak kawin sibuk kuruskan badan...(tapi dak kurus2 pun). well actually ni sumer my mum's doing. ada ker she made me one kurung moden and one kebaya with my once- upon- a- time slim figure nye ukuran. she wants me to slim down. she's actually very worried with my figureless figure skang ni...huhu...tapi tatau persal, i'm actually very contented with my body now. maybe, sbb hati tak susah kot..:) cik abang pun dak kisah mana rasanya....tgk ler, kalau pehni tergerak hati nak kuruh balik. tapi, my mum worries are not pointless...i have strong family history of diabetic. so she's very worried ler that i will somehow get it early. insya allah tak kot. ari jumaat malam sabtu aritu, meema, shoby, pravinna(shoby's sis), aroona and me went to funfair kat tepi tesco. hurm, takde la great sangat...ok2 la.... hehe tapi i didnt play at all.. i am actually scared of height...gayat sangat...even kalau dok kat bangunan tiga pat tingkat tgk bawah pun dah gayat...inikan nak naik mende yang pusing 360 degree 30-40 feet from ground.. mmg takleh la...not the type that enjoy the adrenaline rush...hehe, kalau naik gak, mau termuntah kot kat atas tuh....baik takyah. so, me and shoby just stand firm on the ground. watch this ppl main rasa cam teruja a bit nak try. but, am not that daring ler...meema and aroona actually went up for 5 times. giler babai enjoy diorang tuh. me and shoby lak pi buat gambor ngan pasir tuh...tatau cemana nak cakap....ala sticker yang letak pasir kalaer2....hehe and it turns out as pictures/potrait. both of us chose gambar snow white.. lama gak wat mende tuh...ada la dalam one and half hours. tapi as i am not that artistic, the result is quite atrocious...background colour dia tak cun ler.....before put background, dah lawa dah...bila silap colour for background...hancusss...hehe...tapi hati puas....leh gak gantung kat dalam bilik wat decoration. tu ler aktiviti me semenjak dua menjak nih.....alamak, dont have any idea dah....i'll update later...cincao!

Tersebutlah, di suatu pulau kecil, tinggallah berbagai macam benda-benda abstrak. Ada Cinta, Kesedihan, Kekayaan, Kegembiraan dan sebagainya. Mereka hidup berdampingan dengan baik. Namun suatu ketika, datang badai menghempas dan air laut tiba-tiba naik dan akan menenggelamkan pulau itu. Semua penghuni pulau cepat-cepat berusaha menyelamatkan diri. Cinta sangat kebingungan sebab ia tidak dapat berenang dan tak mempunyai perahu. Ia berdiri di tepi pantai mencoba mencari pertolongan. Sementara itu air makin naik membasahi kaki Cinta. Tak lama Cinta melihat Kekayaan sedang mengayuh perahu. "Kekayaan! Kekayaan! Tolong aku!" teriak Cinta. "Aduh! Maaf, Cinta!" kata Kekayaan, "perahuku telah penuh dengan harta bendaku. Aku tak dapat membawamu serta, nanti perahu ini tenggelam. Lagipula tak ada tempat lagi bagimu di perahuku ini." Lalu Kakayaan cepat-cepat mengayuh perahunya pergi. Cinta sedih sekali, namun kemudian dilihatnya Kegembiraan lewat dengan perahunya. "Kegembiraan! Tolong aku!", teriak Cinta. Namun Kegembiraan terlalu gembira karena ia menemukan perahu sehingga ia tak mendengar teriakan Cinta. Air makin tinggi membasahi Cinta sampai ke pinggang. Ia kian panik. Tak lama lewatlah Kecantikan. "Kecantikan! Bawalah aku bersamamu!", teriak Cinta. "Wah, Cinta, kamu basah dan kotor. Aku tak bisa membawamu ikut. Nanti kamu mengotori perahuku yang indah ini," sahut Kecantikan. Cinta sedih sekali mendengarnya. Ia mulai menangis terisak-isak. Saat itu lewatlah Kesedihan. "Oh, Kesedihan, bawalah aku bersamamu," kata Cinta. "Maaf, Cinta. Aku sedang sedih dan aku ingin sendirian saja..." kata Kesedihan sambil terus mengayuh perahunya. Cinta putus asa. Ia merasakan air makin naik dan akan menenggelamkannya. Pada saat kritis itulah tiba-tiba terdengar suara, "Cinta! Mari cepat naik ke perahuku!" Cinta menoleh ke arah suara itu dan melihat seorang tua dengan perahunya. Cepat-cepat Cinta naik ke perahu itu, tepat sebelum air menenggelamkannya. Di pulau terdekat, orang tua itu menurunkan Cinta dan segera pergi lagi. Pada saat itu barulah Cinta sadar bahwa ia sama sekali tidak mengetahui siapa orang tua yang menyelamatkannya itu. Cinta segera menanyakannya kepada seorang penduduk tua di pulau itu, siapa sebenarnya lelaki tua tadi. "Oh, orang tua tadi? Dia adalah Waktu." kata orang itu."Tapi, mengapa ia menyelamatkanku? Aku tak mengenalnya. Bahkan teman-teman yang mengenalku pun enggan menolongku" tanya Cinta heran. "Sebab," kata orang itu, "hanya Waktu-lah yang tahu berapa nilai sesungguhnya dari Cinta itu ..." IN OTHER WORDS, WE USUALLY FORGET ABOUT THOSE THAT LOVE US, WHENEVER WE ARE SURROUNDED BY COMFORT AND LUXURIES . sometimes, we just realize and start to appreciate them when it's too late. when they are gone, worse if its forever. so maybe, we should start to pay extra attention to ppl around us, if we haven't start ler...if dah start tu, keep it up!:P

ONELINERS-->IZZIT U AND ME?

• Regular naps prevent old age... especially if you take them while driving.
• Marriage is a relationship in which one person is always right and the other is the husband!
• A child's greatest period of growth is the month after you've purchased new uniforms.
• You can't buy love . . . but you pay heavily for it.
• Bad officials are elected by good citizens who do not vote.
• Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired.
• Marriage is give and take. You'd better give it to her or she'll take it anyway.
• My wife and I always compromise. I admit I'm wrong and she agrees with me.
• You're getting old when you enjoy remembering things more than doing them.
• Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools talk because they have to say something.
• They call our language the mother tongue because the father seldom gets to speak.

i got this from email posted my meema. it's kind of fascinating.... Reading Test --->   I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdgnieg -------------------------------------------------------- THE PAOMNNEHAL PWEOR OF THE HMUAN MNID Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? hehe, can you fguire it tihs tinhg out yet? hpoeflluy you wlil be albe to...:) so waht you tihnk? ferkay eh?

this is updated from a nearby cc. am currently wif fazli.

it sounded so familiar, isn't it? Grown-ups love figures.  When you tell them that you have made a new friend, they never ask you any questions about essential matters.  They never say to you, &34;What does his voice sound like?  What games does he love best?  Does he collect butterflies?" Instead, they demand:  "How old is he?  How many brothers has he?  How much does he weigh?  How much money does his father make?"  Only from these figures do they think they have learned anything about him.  ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince, 1943, translated from French

It sounded familiar, isn't it? Grown-ups love figures.  When you tell them that you have made a new friend, they never ask you any questions about essential matters.  They never say to you, &34;What does his voice sound like?  What games does he love best?  Does he collect butterflies?" Instead, they demand:  "How old is he?  How many brothers has he?  How much does he weigh?  How much money does his father make?"  Only from these figures do they think they have learned anything about him.  ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince, 1943, translated from French.

my current posting is orthopaedics , and i am in hospital pakar sultanah fatimah,muar still. still struggling to grab the basic concept, and i am brushing up my anatomy knowledge feverishly. it's a fascinating field really, and kind of straight forward if ur basics are right. we are dealing mainly with fractures and cold cases. today, we saw one old man with colles' fracture of left wrist. well, basically its a fracture of lower part of a bone of forearm (distal part of radius). he met with an accident and fall  with outstreched hand from his bike on the left side and following the fall he experienced pain, swelling, deformity and restricted movement of that particular hand. But, no associated injury present. talking about colles' fracture, i once had the same thing. And i can remember the incident very vividly in my mind. i was 10 years old that time. Rode a bicycle,  and fall on my ritght side  with my palm outstrecthed. it was soo painful ok. i can never describe the instant pain that rushing through my body correctly. it was so painful that i felt like i'm going to pass out. i remembered that my vision blurred and and i was actually rushing into the house like org mabuk todi unsteadily. hehe..then, my whole body sweats, it was a cold sweat. i can't mobilise my limb. i can't hold anything in my hand. and it swelled up immediately. but, cant remember if there's any deformity or not. But, i didn't tell my mum or my grandma. I was too scared that they might nag or punish me coz i wasn't allowed to go out playing that day. But, somehow my mum noticed at dinnertime coz i wasn't my usual self, happily eating away. My hand hurts so much that i cant even suap nasi into my mouth. Then, apa lagi, diorang send me straight away to hospital. Tu pun, i think it was nearly 10 something at nite. Lucky, i wasn't admitted. U see, when i was a kid, i really did'nt smile with the idea of being admitted or makan ubat. Tak suka, maa! well, but now i am actually the one going to admit ppl and make them take medicine. How ironic is that. But  then, again  i've known a few drs that actually never take medicine if they are down with flu or fever. So, i guess, being drs doesn't mean u are actually health conscious or medicine frenly( Yeah, that also include me ). And as for example : smoking.  How many drs do smoke even though they know the hazards of smoking? And i bet many more were actually drinking heavily when they perfectly knew the consequences as well. So, as conclusion drs are perfectly human. and being human, they can't, but help sometimes , to do things that they are not supposed to do, to be tempted with things which is forbidden to population in general...hehe( and that includes smoking, drinking, eating fatty diet, not exercising, and bla bla bla). SO, PLZ DO STOP REGARDING  US AS SAINTED HUMAN K! coz i am ain't one. And, never wanna be one either....

i am back in hostel room. the family left to kl after dropping me down here. i'm feeling lost in a sudden. i just feel that the three days holiday( including one day class bunking) is just not enuf. i feel so drained lately, maybe becoz of the workload.  how i wish i can just break free once, fly back to kt,   breathe with ease, find myself drowned in the tranquility of its nature , and emerged rejuvenated and renewed. But, alas.... no more holidays until next two weeks. hopefully, they are giving off for graduation day. i cant wait....huh~ both my parents and sisters are down in kl..ups, i did mention up there izzit? nvm. they are heading straight to Ampang Puteri, i think. well, just hope my sis turns out -ve. she will definitely be thrilled if it's so, coz well, she is supposed to go school camping.  (And because of this thing, her whole plan rosak already). Other than that, the whole family will be relieved too. But, its too early to say anything right? My other sister, she hasn't stop burping since last week according to my mum. It's terrible. She goes on and on burping. Kesian dia, asik sendawa cam nenek tua. I did laugh initially, teasing her that she's acting superbly to gain mum's attention( nowadays, my mum lavished the utmost attention to my baby sis). But then, dia tak acting. Betul punyer sendawa. Coz when we try to make her suprised or scared, she never stopped burping. She only stop when she fall asleep. Then, my baby sis lak suh dia jgn makan durian, nanti sendawa bau durian.( when i went back,my mum bought lots of durian)..Hehe, sorry, i know that this bit might be distressing or even disgusting to some ppl. But, i just cant suppress my 'kepelikan' over this condition. Maybe i should start opening my handbook of differential diagnosis to look over this bizarre condition. Huhu, finally, its medicine time!!!

i haven't update for quite a long time. its not that i give up trying to write. but somehow, i dont find anything exciting or significant enuf to be jotted down. somehow, i am going back home tomorrow.the sole reason is becoz The whole family is currently not in the pink of health. mum is weak and lethargic due to her back problem(well she's been having this for years already), and my youngest baby sister is down with some rashes around the cheek. and she's seen by the specialist and they are querying SLE.well, things looks quite gloomy rite now. (she's been having oral ulcers constantly for few months, and also joint pain.)and they say she has 5 symptoms in favour of lupus out of 11.somehow, HKT cant conduct any definite investigations as to scarce resources(what!dont tell me govt dont have money, they are taxing us for what then??),and they are about to start off steroid on my poor baby sis based on clinical diagnosis alone ( hello, the symptoms are very non specific, doc!). it's a good thing mum actually hushed the idea off. well, they say it wont do much harm on my sis to start off the steroids, even if she turns out of not having lupus. huh, never ever in my 4 yrs of being a medical student, my lecturers says anything of that nature. they has been highlighting here and there, again and again repeatedly that we are to be CAUTIOUS to start off steroids, and the drugs are not to be given unnecessarily. well,and this are all not for nothing, obviously, it's because of the side effects dreaded.so, my mum finally decided to get her referred to ampang puteri. i guess, that's the best opted for her now. well, i guess i just have to see her condition myself.i cant wait to see her . i am worried, and i dont want anything bad to happen to any of my family. but then, i guess that's all life is all about. trials,woes,worries woven together with happiness,contentment and hopes. well, i still have hopes.lots of them. hopefully, it will turn out something else less morbid. i pray god,let it be something else less terrifying. plz,plz,plz...

Pirates of the Caribbean!

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You are an angel of the forest. You love to have a
good time and to get in trouble. For you, it's
all fun and games. You like to have friends,
preferably not human, and can converse with all
animals. You love to party, and like to be
alone. You are a deep person, but most people
miss it. Thinking that you are just childish
and young. Which you are not. You are old, and
wise, even if nobody can see it. You know what
the real world is like, better that your peers.
You have a naturally beatiful singing voice,
and are a natural with most instruments. You can often loose your self. But will always find
yourself again. For that is just who you are. Be happy. Never change. Because you are beautiful.

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yippeee....i am back in my hostel room.blissfully full,sinfully happy,and freaking out tired.but i never feel this happy within 3 years.so so happy.just back from terengganu. a real beautiful experience. mommy made yummy so called "melt in the mouth,not in the hand" choc chip cookies.and the choclatey taste still lingers in my mouth.ah...heaven.but dont worry,i have handful of them here,securedly locked in my closet,hehe...sounds stingy is it?but cant lose this beautifully crafted cookies comes from my mummy's artful hands when comes to cooking, too soon.if they can lasts for at least one week,then i'm blessed.actually am not worried about any creatures ,be it a mouse for real(my room is mouse proof,mind u!)or a human in the form of mouse(well,my frenz of course,but very unlikely they are going to do so)sneaking my precious cookies.somemore,has to watch out for my calorie intake these days.had too much of gulai daging,daging goreng,rendang daging and everythings cooked with daging these days. i am putting on few pounds already.mummy has been tiredlessly nagging all the time about my so called diet programme.but me being myself,i just go on eating whateve i feel like eating without any regrets.btw,whats the use of a beautifully cooked delicacies,if not to be savoured the details?hehe....thats my philosophy..... anybody objects?i rest my case.thank u.

after quite a long time,finally i am updating the blog.nothing much to say,since my routine is extremely monotonous these days.the same thing again and again.classes,clinics and cases,books,books and more books.i am keeping my nose on the grindstone,has to panaskan enjin for sessional exam which is coming up within 3 weeks.well,thats the core of life for each and every medical students i guess,anticipating exams each after another,a never ending business.sometimes i feel tired of studying,sick of exams and nauseated with every attempt of reading stacks of papers and heaps and piles of thick,3-4 inches thick book.i need to breathe,need to leisurely spending time,need to stretch my limbs and spare my brain a few holidays.but then,as medicine is a zero defect business,and as it's also my own choice of doing it,i am left with no better choice rather than lavishing my utmost attention to my studies.i have to.and trying too, frantically to make most of my time now reading the subjects.enough rant. on a lighter note,am going back to terengganu again tonight.am getting myself 3 days holiday full with enjoyment,family gatherings,good foods,sound sleep and endless babeque.cant wait for mummy well known secret recipe rempah daging bakar. am going to enjou myself tremendously with family company.my family is going to berkorban this time.am looking fwd for it. happy hari raya haji.

You represent... hope. You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.

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you are darkcyan #008B8B

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well. Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right. Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.

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SHE AND HER INSPIRATIONS: Be inspired I : Do more than exist - live Do more than touch - feel Do more than look - observe Do more than read - absorb Do more than hear - listen Do more than listen - understand John H. Rhoade Be inspired II : No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. Eleanor Roosevelt Be inspired III : Friends, there is great value in disaster. Look, all of our mistakes have burned up. Thank God we can start anew. Thomas Edison (after a fire burned his laboratory to the ground)

am back from posting.today we had 3 topics.rushed through everything within 2 hours.not that bad,huh?hehe...scored 9/10 in two sets of paper,the other paper managed to score 10.guess my brain is becoming super genius nowadays.actually none of that.u guys shouldnt buy my words for that.we actually knows what is coming out.haha.....a little bit of trickery wont hurt rite. some more, cant see any use of these posting to me rite now.ok2,i know we are acting a bit irresponsible,um i mean me...but i have to rush back to hostel coz-----I AM OFF TO TERENGGANU TONITE....ah heaven,miss home so much.the quiet little town with its tasty delicacy and sandy beaches.i miss those countless moments spent in batu buruk with my cousins and frens.a purrfect hang out place.simply miss the feel and smell of terengganu.simply miss the taste of keropok lekorin my mouth.simply miss the colourful kites in the sky of batu buruk in the evenings.simply miss the taste of aiskrim goreng melting in my mouth.i miss those things.but above all,miss my family fiercely. when i was in MANIPAL,i can never stop myself from comparing the indian sea with the one at home.even though the water still taste the same-its always salty,but for me, the sky is always clearer and bluer back home.the water is always extra crystal clear back home,and the sandy beaches are like velvet back home.knew that i exaggerated too much,but then,there's no place like home.home sweet home.home is heaven.i started to acknowledge and value things that i have when i am abroad.i started to learn about life when i was away.my path of maturity was initiated by that first particular step,the step that i took when i stepped out of the house ,out of my parents' protective wings and out of my mum's eye. but then,i'm thankful.really2 thankful.coz even though my journey is always eventful and diffilcult,still i learnt something throughout the years out of home-CONTENTMENT. To be contented, is not having millions or zillions of money in the bank. its about how u view ur life,and how u appreciate what u have in life. N I am contented. very2 contented. thank god,for giving me the chance to lead my life. and the strength to choose what is correct for me. its beautiful,and i always hope it will remain like this. always...:)

i'm back from kl last nite,had real good time.went shopping with MR F.actually not much of shopping done,mostly we were windowing and eating.But then,i've been wanting to buy a strap sandal that shows off ur feet to the advantage for like,say,ages already.but MR F doesnt really smile with the idea.its too 'revealing' for his liking,but he never elaborate more.i think he's a fetish..haha....dont ever mention this to him guys.hrms...but then,what he says is true.i should not reveal my feet to the non family,practically speaking i shud be wearing a stocking to cover it.but then,easy said that done rite? today am starting my medicine posting.was posted in this particular dermatology clinic,with my other 5 frenz.i was the only girl there.its damn exhausting.as chinese newyear holidays are coming up,we have to cram five days portion to 2 days.just imagine that.i think the doctor is a real nut case.he made me goes crazy going through the slides and answering some questions by the end of the sessions.just imagine, 5 sets of slides and 2 sets of questions.but,then,i still manage to get 9/10 and 8/10 in both papers.so i guess its not that bad after all.:P oh yeah,am going to start reading a new book. my new year resolution-read at least one book a month. hopefully will be able to accomplish that.

i have been humming this particular song by lizzie mcguire for awhile now.donno how,but the melody just sit there, roaming at the back of my mind.the melody is quite catchy,but there's another version in ballad that i like better-ye know the one that paolo(that hot italian guy in lizzie mcguire the movie) sings wif her. Hey Now, Hey Now Hey Now, Hey Now Have you ever seen such a beautiful night? I could almost kiss the stars, for shining so bright When I see your smiles, I go-oh oh ohh I would never want to miss this Cause in my heart, I know what this is Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of I've got-somewhere I belong I've got-somebody to love This is what dreams... Are made of Have you ever wondered what life is about? You could search the world and never figure it out You won't have to sail the oceans-no no no Happiness is no mystery It's here and now, it's you and me Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of I've got-somewhere I belong I've got-somebody to love This is what dreams... Are made of Open your eyes (This is what dreams are made of) Shout to the skys (This is what dreams are made of) When I see your smiles, I go-oh oh ohh Yesterday my life was duller Now everythings technicolor Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of I've got-somewhere I belong I've got-somebody to love This is what dreams... (dreams) This is what dreams... Are made of Hey Now, Hey Now (Hey Now) This is what dreams... Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of and this song goes to someone who dare to dream wif me.....thanks ^_^ but then, just a mere reminder to myself:dreams never work,unless u do!!!

she wants her dreamland....... i am so tired today.terribly tired.my head throbs,my back aches,my vision is less than 3/60.my mind is a whirlpool,yet i still can't drift to the dreamland.And that makes me irritable.so irritable.i am now a grumpy demented old woman.haha. i have to find solace in sleep.my brain is screaming tired,my body is demanding rest,my cellular level is deficit.cum'on farah.u have to sleep.u can do it.close ur eyes.sing a lullaby.think of a green meadow with dewy grass.sheeps grazing quietly under the sunny sky.one sheep jump over the fence,another follow suit.then another,then another.but still she is wide awake.she tosses around.she hugs her pooh.she kicks the bolster.yet no sleep comes.she's deprived of yet another luxury of life.and she's depressed.SO so depressed.what the hell is wrong anyway wif my biological clock?anybody has any idea? tomorrow am going to my lecturer. am having INSOMNIA.

this is my first proper entry for the day,and also for the new blog.after endless times of peeping into others blog,i finally decided to keep one of my own.i found the idea of having your own online journal is exciting,but maybe it is also supposingly to be scary.yup,coz u are going to unfold and reveal certain parts of u which is untold before.but anyhow,i am going to start blogging to.and for some good reasons too.

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