i did it again,yeah. i know, i know. i promised to myself that i will update regularly. but its hard. with my routine, it is very very hard. whatever it is,here i am again. i changed my posting. i was placed in the blood bank. it was supposed to be easier than the previous routine i've been through. well, it partly was. but not truly easy and one to be taken lightly. i did learnt a few stuffs that i never knew. more understanding of the blood request process. more understanding of the process of recruiting a donor, and get to realized a few stuffs too, that is how diffilcult and how crucial is the task that the doctors in blood bank played, in ensuring that those 'upstairs' people get enough blood and component supply to cater for their needs in saving the lives of their patients, and at the same time, making sure that those bloods are safe to be given. its not a role that should be taken for granted. i appreciate the opportunity to learn and to understand this. in the future, if i am destined to be a specialist, i hope that i will be a well informed and are aware of others are doing, and will appreciate what they all are doing along with me in saving other peoples lives. well, thats what team spirits are, at least in my humble opinion. so, after 3 months in blood bank.i got a very pleasant suprise. i will be starting in KKM headquarters in january. again, Allah answered my prayers.He made me wait, but the wait is all worth it. He made it timely with my husband coming home. At the moment, my husband is away on business trip to the US. And i could not imagine how my life would be if i have to start earlier on in Putrajaya. i sure will manage somehow, but it must be kind of depressing too. to learn new stuffs,the road and living alone may make me go nuts. well, i have to declare that i am dependent on him, honestly. i would be lost if i dont have him in this transition trying period. but i am overjoyed too, at the prospect of finally settling down with him.so Allah definitely knows better, his timing is perfect. Thank you Allah, alhamdulillah. So now i am busy with packing and tidying up. I will be starting fresh and new.There will be new challenges but i will try my best to tackle them. I will learn new things and meet new people. But thats what life is all about. We have to move on and make the best of what we have. Dream on and make it real. As for me, my first is to see my husband tomorrow. He is currently on the plane. It must be tiring, the journey will be more than 24 hours.I hope he will be safe and sound.Cant wait to see him and make him eat keropok lekor after 2 months.I miss him so very much. Next, i want to start renovating our new home. My mind is whirling with so much ideas.But that could wait, let the boss come back first and have his rest.Then, i will start reliving the ideas to him. Owh, i cant wait.

i came back from work today and was told by abah that he just plucked his coconuts.i havent introduced my abah, havent i? abah is my retired dad who is now a fulltime dad (at least to me), and simply loves farming. he has planted for us (his 3 daughters ya, not musketeers)many many kind of fruit trees. we are just yet to reap the fruits coz they mostly arent ready to start flowering yet. whatever it is, his coconuts are precious and loved by so many, including encik tupai2 living freely in our orchard and backyard. so when he announced that he has successfully plucked two coconuts (by the way, mereka pun sudah ditebuk encik tupai2 sedikit)and they are readily in the fridge, i was overjoyed. coz i simply love the refreshing young coconuts water. and the flesh, is equally heavenly to me. and my father's coconut is just as nice.

they reminded me of my childhood though. as far as i could recall, i started having them when i was 5 yrs old. and the coconuts remind me of someone- tokyah,which is my late grandma. why so? well, when i was little, i was living abit apart from my grandma/aunts/uncleas/cousins. my parents originally worked in Kl.and while i was small, i was being taken care by my other grandma in kemaman. when i was about to start kindergarten at 5, my parents came back to terengganu and we started to live together in Chendering. the rest of my mum's family was mainly in Paloh. as far as i could remember, they lived quite far from us coz everytime my parents took us to paloh, i will fall asleep during the journey and it felt like ages. (now only i realized its just mere 30 minutes). and only then i get to know tokyah and also my cousins too. they seemed like strangers initially. (but now we are more like siblings).

the things that i could recall vividly is that tokyah has a grand rumah papan with a very nice small pondok or known affectionately as 'gerei' to us at the backyard of her house. the gerei was used for keeping al-quran and teaching the youngs of the kg as tokyah was an alquran teacher.it was also used in some special occasion like kenduri or to us, the young grandchildren, as a place to main masak2 or main perang2. in front of her house, there used to be a few coconut trees of about 20 to 30 feet high standing tall. and they are usually full of coconuts! when i came down for one of the trips, she used to ask one of his kg man to climb up the trees and get some of those delectable fruits down for us.and we will end up having them in the gerei coz the soft breeze that usually accompanied us there will make them extra nice and extra delicious.suffice to say that the juicy tender flesh did not take too long to be my favourite. in fact, i used to ask her to summon the man to get us the fruits whenever that pakcik was around. and i still remember the way i ate them, the water will be put in a large jar for the elderly to drink. the coconuts shell will be cut open into half and then i will scrape the flesh and mix in some sugar. the sweet flesh then will be eaten on its own while the water consumed separately. it was one of the best moment in my life.

now, there are still coconut trees infront of tokyah's house. but it hasnt been climbed on for quite sometime. i guess they are too tall nowadays. and the gerei is no longer there. our dear tokyah is no longer with us. she left us 1 year ago. however, this childhood memory of her will remain affectionately etched in my heart.

rest awhile from the swiss post ok. i need to gather my thoughts. well, this is light post that suddenly pops on my head. its about what i would be if i wasnt what i am today. i think i would be a......writer. yes, a writer. i have always loved writing. writing has inspired me in many ways. i found that i used to have ease on letting myself go, scribbling on a piece of paper. it was easy, just came so naturally. without having to learn formally how. but i stopped. completely stopped. coz i have lost the wealth of words. i dont know what to write for sometime, which is quite long considering that it has been years. but i would not let that stop me again this time. coz i found that the subject need not be something which is incredibly extraordinary, nor it has to be something utterly insane to get me started. what i need is something simple to get the words magically appear. and to continue weave the stories into something meaningful. that is what i hope to achieve. if i fail to entice others on reading my thought, its fine. coz for the first time, i am doing this for myself. owh, it already feels rewarding.

so here i am again. fulfilling my promise. i have always wanted to see the world. all this while, i just had a few opportunity to travel overseas and both were in developing countries.i envy my husband sometimes because he has many opportunities due to the nature of his work. he has travelled to all the continents except Europe. i got tired listening to his first hand stories about all those places he visited, so when the opportunity finally came,we decided that its time for us to fly, to places we both haven't set our foot in. so naturally, it is europe. simply because he haven't been there. the idea was for us both to feel the excitement and anticipation. when i was little, i love watching the Alam Ria Cuti Sekolah on the telly. and it so happened that one of those movies was The Sound Of Music. i could still recall vividly how captivated i was with the movie, particularly of the scene where Julie Andrews sang over the picturesque hill overlooking the valley. it was simply breathtaking, even in pictures. then and there, i vowed to myself that i will be seeing that place in real someday, when i'm all grown up. So thats why i choose to see Switzerland.to fulfill my lifelong dream. initially, we wanted to see all of the Austria Alps and Germany where the film was taken, but due to some reason, we could just do Swiss. But i never regretted the decision. Maybe someday, we will go to the other parts of alpine region with our children.who knows?

get what i mean and then, we have to see London, because simply thats where the must go in Europe for beginners like us, dont you think so? a trip to europe wont be complete if you dont set foot in london, and maybe paris. but we couldnt make time for paris too, though how magnificent it might be due to we have other things on our mind--> we went to the england's countryside. and i feel its worth the skipped paris thingy.so thats how we came to our decision. our trip was in May.it was late spring in swiss, whereas in london the spring was just blooming. the weather was still considered cold to me though. most of the time, i layer my clothes on. and sometimes, i have to put on my gloves. i know it looks weird to the locals but i'm so unable to withstand the cold. now, we started from KLIA at 8 something pm. we flew to zurich by Thai Airways and stopped by bangkok for 3 hours. it was freaking 3 hours of my life though, coz i was so sleepy , yet couldnt find a decent seat in the Suvarnabhumi Airport, plus we were worried that we might missed the plane if both of us dozed off. the gate in Bangkok was abit weird for me, coz to board the plane we have to go down through a pelantar. read more later. i will be back. in a jiffy.:)

i will be writing about the swiss and england experience. i promise. i just need to gather my memory. well, its just 1 month but i feel like its light years away. my grey matter seemed to degenerate fast these days. i am aging, no doubt about it. so before they are completely lost, i shall have to record them up here. so all are not lost forever. so when my hair really turns grey, i could tell my children and maybe my grandchildren all the stories. its a pity i couldn't remember much about my manipal days or my umrah trips now. maybe i need to recollect them too and keep them here. anyway, thats what this blog are about - my experience, past and present, apart from my inner thoughts that i need to put into perspective. well, it looks like we have to get some work done here. but i will like the process i think. so this is me signing off first with a bersemangat resolution.

before this, i always felt that my life is abit monotonous. been doing the same routine for years. its always work,work and work and not much fun. but, thats about to change now. i want a life, so i'm getting one. i shall paint the town red,blue and green, in my own way of course. meanwhile, i shall still ponder on certain issues that needs my attention, maybe major decisions are to be made that will change my life forever. but on that i will take my own sweet time. May ALLAH guide me onto light and the best for my benefit and future. Whatever to become, i hope for the best. and shall be ready to face whatever that's in store. the thing is to be positive and remains positive. life can be a rainbow after a drop of rain. i shall wait for my rainbow!

we just adopted a new pet, a ginger long haired persian puss nicked as 'Aaron Tuah'. When we first saw his pictures, the first thing that really caught my eyes was his big,brown,beady eyes.(picture puss in the boot with those two pleading eyes)and when i finally get to meet him for the first time, i straightway fall head over heel in love with him, because he is such a beautiful cat. so we took him in, we mothered and fathered him. give him our love, made he feel happy the way a puss should. initially,he was this kind of jinak-jinak kucing merpati, where you can touch him but cant cuddle him. however,now, he do let me cuddle him for a few minutes without struggling off like somebody is trying to catnap him as before. but he also has become a little tyrant! naughty naughty boy indeed. before he came, i always had a peaceful meal on the table with my husband or infront of the telly when my husband isn't around. but now not anymore, coz aaron couldnt let his mommy or daddy had their fill as always. he would be jumping up and down when seeing us with a plate or a mug. he would be looking at us with those big pleading eyes like puss in the boot, and when i ignore him, he will be putting his two dainty front paws on my knees. if that doesn't work,he will start main kasar one...! jump straight on my lap or even onto the dining table sometimes , scaring my wits out and try to sniff mommy's delectable food off the plate. what can i do? i could just helplessly scolded him "sayang, you shouldnt do this sayang!" but he will never pay any attention to my scolding. he will just sit there looking innocent as ever. and i will be so frustrated coz i could never discipline him to be a good decent cat; like the one that we had back home in trg, which was disciplined by my father. my father tiger coacher her to make her obey.well, i dont believe (and have the heart to) in that kind of tiger coaching, so maybe i need to try and do something else so aaron will learn that when human eats, he shouldnt disturb.so i googled up and got some good articles on 'how to discipline your little pet'.well, i shall try it out and see if its working.(it actually involves some cat sound growling which i need to practise on,haha) i really need that now coz i really miss our peaceful dining at times. sigh. and today, he made me screamed again. you see, aaron is a toilet trained kind of cats.he only poo-poo in his litterbox. he wont poo-poo somewhere else.and thats a good thing actually,or else i would be on my knees daily,scooping his poo-poo . yucks, i wont like that! this aaron also always has his bath about once a week or every fortnight and blowed dry (think about hair and spa treatment).however till date, we havent been giving him his regular bath yet because we still havent bought a hairdryer for him.well actually we plan to go out today and buy.however aaron apparently couldnt wait.so today what happened was, he poo-pooed again in his litterbox.i heard him clawing the litter,and lo and behold, i suddenly noticed a waft of the undescribable smell coming out from nowhere in the living room. it was awful, so i hunted for him up and down.i found him sitting quietly under the sofa, looking very goody-goody as ever. well, i fished him out and straightaway into the shower he went. hairdryer or no hairdryer this time, i couldn't tahan anymore. so i shampooed him and rinsed him off. i was a bit suprised coz he was good, sat still on the sink and let me spa him off. initially i thought that he's gonna resist and i shall have to wrestled him off like other cats we have back home . but turns out the bathtime was actually pleasant. and now he smells all nice and girly again. he looks bad though, with his hair sticking to his body. hehe. not his usual charming self.and not so fatty after all. but gosh, he is still adorable. however, i think he will try to behave for sometime this time coz he knows mommy wont let him got into mischief again. yes, i wont coz i just finished scrubbing the kitchen floor for 1 hour! now i feel like growling like a little feisty feline!

so this is our aaron tuah, in his relaxed post. taken 2 weeks ago, when he first arrived.

i am back in the old sleepy town. already for 9 months.thats quite a long time isn't it? well, during my absence in this blogging world, alot has happened in the real world. really. and i have stories, lots of them which i should have jotted down here earlier,but i didn't and couldn't because of many reasons-mainly is time constraint and secondly is time constraint again, apart from others. well, but whoever isn;t busy these days? even a home maker is busy bustling around, i wont have any doubt about that. because for the past few days, thats what i am, and oh what abit of relief it is for now.though i too, bustled around. maybe i should just recapped what has happened in my life since past few years? no? well i think i should since my archive shows a very big distance from 2009 to 2011. i last posted in 2009! and what would be 'me' in another 20 years time thinking, if i happen to still be much alive and reading through the blog again and seeing the blankness of 2010. as if nothing much has happened. when there are actually MUCH has happened. for the sake of future me, this was what happened in your past (now it looks like i am trying to save my brain cells in case of alzheimer) 1. get myself hitched to a very great guy in 2008 december. has lived so far happily ever and hopefully after. however, we still have a relatively long distance relationship. i found it too comfortable to leave my nest and him being the nice sipportive husband still letting me to have my way. 2. i got myself transferred to kuala terengganu. well, the jabatan actually transferred me. but i filled up the form, so it was my choice too right? 3. be posted in anaesthesiology. well. a very good posting but a demanding one too. shall blog about this later. its much more than just putting ppl to sleep, or getting cranky because too much gases after a day in ot. 4. went for umrah in 2009. it was one of the best moments in my life. 5. went for a vacation with my husband 1 month ago. and thats also one of the best moments in my life 6.nowadays, i am stranded here for the 'undescribable' 7. mom started a small home business. me and my sisters are the brainstormers. 8.contemplating what to do next in my life. i have to settle a few nagging issues that needs my attention. and here is my to do list for the next few months: 1.learn graphic design 2.learn cake decorating 3.gain some knowledge about astronomy 4. do some crafting 5. be a wife 6. just be happy with what i am doing. well, dear me, thats just a small recap. we will elaborate more after this short pause. i promise.

hi! hello! i am back. finally. after so long hibernating,i decided to be back writing. for myself at least. will start jotting down things that cross my mind. and oh, all the experience and going- ons on my life. at least, when i grow old and starts to be forgetful, this little blog may serve as a reminder what i have been through, my ups and downs, my victory and virtue. hopefully as my hair greying, my mind will remain green. :) hopefully. i keep my hand up.praying. wish me luck, ppl. for now, i rest my fingers, thank you.