i am posted in district now, and serving the people restlessly. day in day out, i lost count of the days spent here. it has to be nearly a year. well, i have settled down finally and made a nest. i am in my comfort zone, suprisingly yes, as i did not choose to be here in the first place. i was sent away a year ago on a 3 day notice, while i was in OT , sweating for a few couple of hours assisting daycare surgery, by a mere phone call. and it was more frustrating that i received the call at 1230 noon. i cant get anything much done by mere 3 hours isnt it( the office closes at 3.30 over here on thursday). after 5 minutes of sulking and feeling depressed, i finally get around and try to make my postpone letter, which of course wont finish by then. so finally i accepted my fate rather gracefully and went about settling my transfer checklist. it was depressing. the first few months were terrible. but i survived. learnt a few things here and there that never beknownst to me to be learnt. made new friends and enemy. and for the first time really stand on my own two dainty feet. i made decisions. which matters. and they made me mature alittle bit more. i'm glad i came. and maybe this time, if i have to go, it wont be without tears either.

i am changing the nature of my posts...there will still be goings ons on my life. but today, i have decided to come out of my shell.to reveal the true me. no more cloaks. no more invisible veils. i will show my true face, and colours in my writings. i have decided that i have been demure enough in my writings, and i guess that has to change. i am a normal human being for god sake. i guess i am always this person who wants to have a go at everything in life, who wishes that she can reveals her wildcat side, yet she is too afraid to see her in light of what she truly is. i guess i am scared of my own self. but why should i? i am still anonymous.

it has been 2 year and 7 months. so many has changed. and definitely alot has happened, friendship gained and renewed, some were lost forever, love lost, a few silent tears were shed and then found again. this time i didnt shed any tears, but my heart leapt with joy.looking back the memory lane, i havent done too badly. the past years were satisfactory. but somethings may be better this year. at least, earnestly i hope so. with the coming of a new year. i hope for a promising future for both of us and our families.yes, i am a married woman now for a change. happy new year to u and me. may this year bring us joy,prosperous and fruitful life together.