after quite a long time,finally i am updating the blog.nothing much to say,since my routine is extremely monotonous these days.the same thing again and again.classes,clinics and cases,books,books and more books.i am keeping my nose on the grindstone,has to panaskan enjin for sessional exam which is coming up within 3 weeks.well,thats the core of life for each and every medical students i guess,anticipating exams each after another,a never ending business.sometimes i feel tired of studying,sick of exams and nauseated with every attempt of reading stacks of papers and heaps and piles of thick,3-4 inches thick book.i need to breathe,need to leisurely spending time,need to stretch my limbs and spare my brain a few holidays.but then,as medicine is a zero defect business,and as it's also my own choice of doing it,i am left with no better choice rather than lavishing my utmost attention to my studies.i have to.and trying too, frantically to make most of my time now reading the subjects.enough rant. on a lighter note,am going back to terengganu again tonight.am getting myself 3 days holiday full with enjoyment,family gatherings,good foods,sound sleep and endless babeque.cant wait for mummy well known secret recipe rempah daging bakar. am going to enjou myself tremendously with family company.my family is going to berkorban this time.am looking fwd for it. happy hari raya haji.

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SHE AND HER INSPIRATIONS: Be inspired I : Do more than exist - live Do more than touch - feel Do more than look - observe Do more than read - absorb Do more than hear - listen Do more than listen - understand John H. Rhoade Be inspired II : No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. Eleanor Roosevelt Be inspired III : Friends, there is great value in disaster. Look, all of our mistakes have burned up. Thank God we can start anew. Thomas Edison (after a fire burned his laboratory to the ground)

am back from posting.today we had 3 topics.rushed through everything within 2 hours.not that bad,huh?hehe...scored 9/10 in two sets of paper,the other paper managed to score 10.guess my brain is becoming super genius nowadays.actually none of that.u guys shouldnt buy my words for that.we actually knows what is coming out.haha.....a little bit of trickery wont hurt rite. some more, cant see any use of these posting to me rite now.ok2,i know we are acting a bit irresponsible,um i mean me...but i have to rush back to hostel coz-----I AM OFF TO TERENGGANU TONITE....ah heaven,miss home so much.the quiet little town with its tasty delicacy and sandy beaches.i miss those countless moments spent in batu buruk with my cousins and frens.a purrfect hang out place.simply miss the feel and smell of terengganu.simply miss the taste of keropok lekorin my mouth.simply miss the colourful kites in the sky of batu buruk in the evenings.simply miss the taste of aiskrim goreng melting in my mouth.i miss those things.but above all,miss my family fiercely. when i was in MANIPAL,i can never stop myself from comparing the indian sea with the one at home.even though the water still taste the same-its always salty,but for me, the sky is always clearer and bluer back home.the water is always extra crystal clear back home,and the sandy beaches are like velvet back home.knew that i exaggerated too much,but then,there's no place like home.home sweet home.home is heaven.i started to acknowledge and value things that i have when i am abroad.i started to learn about life when i was away.my path of maturity was initiated by that first particular step,the step that i took when i stepped out of the house ,out of my parents' protective wings and out of my mum's eye. but then,i'm thankful.really2 thankful.coz even though my journey is always eventful and diffilcult,still i learnt something throughout the years out of home-CONTENTMENT. To be contented, is not having millions or zillions of money in the bank. its about how u view ur life,and how u appreciate what u have in life. N I am contented. very2 contented. thank god,for giving me the chance to lead my life. and the strength to choose what is correct for me. its beautiful,and i always hope it will remain like this. always...:)

i'm back from kl last nite,had real good time.went shopping with MR F.actually not much of shopping done,mostly we were windowing and eating.But then,i've been wanting to buy a strap sandal that shows off ur feet to the advantage for like,say,ages already.but MR F doesnt really smile with the idea.its too 'revealing' for his liking,but he never elaborate more.i think he's a fetish..haha....dont ever mention this to him guys.hrms...but then,what he says is true.i should not reveal my feet to the non family,practically speaking i shud be wearing a stocking to cover it.but then,easy said that done rite? today am starting my medicine posting.was posted in this particular dermatology clinic,with my other 5 frenz.i was the only girl there.its damn exhausting.as chinese newyear holidays are coming up,we have to cram five days portion to 2 days.just imagine that.i think the doctor is a real nut case.he made me goes crazy going through the slides and answering some questions by the end of the sessions.just imagine, 5 sets of slides and 2 sets of questions.but,then,i still manage to get 9/10 and 8/10 in both papers.so i guess its not that bad after all.:P oh yeah,am going to start reading a new book. my new year resolution-read at least one book a month. hopefully will be able to accomplish that.

i have been humming this particular song by lizzie mcguire for awhile now.donno how,but the melody just sit there, roaming at the back of my mind.the melody is quite catchy,but there's another version in ballad that i like better-ye know the one that paolo(that hot italian guy in lizzie mcguire the movie) sings wif her. Hey Now, Hey Now Hey Now, Hey Now Have you ever seen such a beautiful night? I could almost kiss the stars, for shining so bright When I see your smiles, I go-oh oh ohh I would never want to miss this Cause in my heart, I know what this is Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of I've got-somewhere I belong I've got-somebody to love This is what dreams... Are made of Have you ever wondered what life is about? You could search the world and never figure it out You won't have to sail the oceans-no no no Happiness is no mystery It's here and now, it's you and me Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of I've got-somewhere I belong I've got-somebody to love This is what dreams... Are made of Open your eyes (This is what dreams are made of) Shout to the skys (This is what dreams are made of) When I see your smiles, I go-oh oh ohh Yesterday my life was duller Now everythings technicolor Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of I've got-somewhere I belong I've got-somebody to love This is what dreams... (dreams) This is what dreams... Are made of Hey Now, Hey Now (Hey Now) This is what dreams... Hey Now, Hey Now This is what dreams are made of and this song goes to someone who dare to dream wif me.....thanks ^_^ but then, just a mere reminder to myself:dreams never work,unless u do!!!

she wants her dreamland....... i am so tired today.terribly tired.my head throbs,my back aches,my vision is less than 3/60.my mind is a whirlpool,yet i still can't drift to the dreamland.And that makes me irritable.so irritable.i am now a grumpy demented old woman.haha. i have to find solace in sleep.my brain is screaming tired,my body is demanding rest,my cellular level is deficit.cum'on farah.u have to sleep.u can do it.close ur eyes.sing a lullaby.think of a green meadow with dewy grass.sheeps grazing quietly under the sunny sky.one sheep jump over the fence,another follow suit.then another,then another.but still she is wide awake.she tosses around.she hugs her pooh.she kicks the bolster.yet no sleep comes.she's deprived of yet another luxury of life.and she's depressed.SO so depressed.what the hell is wrong anyway wif my biological clock?anybody has any idea? tomorrow am going to my lecturer. am having INSOMNIA.

this is my first proper entry for the day,and also for the new blog.after endless times of peeping into others blog,i finally decided to keep one of my own.i found the idea of having your own online journal is exciting,but maybe it is also supposingly to be scary.yup,coz u are going to unfold and reveal certain parts of u which is untold before.but anyhow,i am going to start blogging to.and for some good reasons too.

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